I feel like a lot of people will be able to relate to this song. It's about that beginning stage of a relationship, where it's not even really a relationship yet. You don't know exactly what it is, but you know it feels good. Your stomach is constantly filled with butterflies when you're around them, or thinking of them, but in a split second you can also be plagued with the thought of 'what if they don't even like me, and this is all just made so much bigger in my head than it really is!?!?!?". It's a beautiful, horrible, bittersweet place to be.
This is the song that just wanted to be written and wasn't going to let me rest until it was done! I was actually smack bang in the middle of an 8 day intensive in my final year of university, and when I say intensive - it was intense. 8 days of classes during the day and working on assignments (to be presented on the last day) at night (and just to make it extra fun, the library was undergoing renovations and we had limited resources after hours) to try and tie together four years of learning. *Intense* I had zero time to be writing songs, or even thinking about writing songs. But this song had different ideas. I still have the notebook from that class with the original lyrics scrawled in the back pages. I quickly scribbled down lyric ideas as they'd do the rounds in my head just as a way of saying "ok, it's down, leave me alone now", only to then have another line pop in not long after. By the end of the 8 days I had the lyrics and melody pretty much written, I went home, played around a bit on the guitar and bam, song finished.
This song is a hot favourite at my gigs and is probably my most requested original song to date! It is the second single off my long-awaited debut EP. I received a Regional Arts Development Fund grant (partnership between Cairns Regional Council and Arts Queensland) at the end of 2020 to contribute to making the EP, and since then have been putting my all into every aspect of the EP and releases.
Lyrics
It was a week, or maybe two,
that I, I had my eye on you.
Then you finally came to me.
The beginning’s so bittersweet.
Feel like I’m swept up off my feet.
Mixed with the agony of
are you even into me?
Oh, butterflies and anxiety.
It feels so good,
but it's killing me.
Would you be so kind as to ease my mind?
I hope you want this, ‘cause I know I do.
But if you don’t want to be there,
don’t lead me there.
Don’t let me fall, if you’re not coming too.
You may be scared, I might be too.
Learned from the past,
loving can hurt you.
So it can be hard to let down your guard.
Oh, butterflies and anxiety.
It feels so good,
but its killing me.
Would you be so kind as to ease my mind?
And honestly, don’t box me in
with anyone that you’ve been with previously.
''Cause they’re not me.
if you stick around for a little while you’ll see.
Oh, but these butterflies and anxiety.
It feels so good,
Oh, but its killing me.
Would you be so kind as to ease my mind?
Would you be so kind,
And ease my mind?
Just say you’ll be mine.